Friday, January 31, 2025
Working From Home
Saturday, January 25, 2025
Fitting
Monday, January 20, 2025
Various Musings
Consider how you would describe a great work of art, like this one.
Do you talk about the trees? The fish? The water?
The reflections? The feelings they invoke? The symbolism?
You can draw attention to one part of it, and lose sight of the whole.
Anyways, I was thinking about that because I've had a post itching at me for a while now, but when I tried thinking of what I wanted to say it was like focusing on just one part of the whole.
Or perhaps I needed to figure out what layer to focus on.
When I pull back the layers, well. It's easier to use the religious terms I grew up with, though I don't necessarily mean you have to believe to understand.
Let's go with one of the basic tenets - God is good.
He isn't cruel, he wouldn't create a world that pits us against each other, nor one where we have to be cruel to each other to survive.
And yet... that doesn't seem to be the world we live in. There are lions, and there are lambs, and the lions eat the lambs, and it would take some sort of divine intervention to make the lions lay down with the lambs without eating them.
Some people use the cold cruelty of the world to argue God doesn't exist, or any number of metaphysical arguments, but whatever. Let's not get distracted and keep it simple -
God would not create a world where we have to step on each other in order to find happiness, peace, or security.
This is generally when I like to pull out the whole allegory of the long spoons, but I think that doesn't address the real problem.
It's not that the logic doesn't make sense, it's that people don't believe it really works like that.
You could almost say they lack...
Faith.
We generally end up thinking something like 'Yeah, in an ideal world we wouldn't have to _____, but... '
But in this world, other people lie and cheat. You're just doing what you have to do.
You have to play the game.
You have to be realistic.
You have to ______.
Do note, there's an underlying fear to all of these. That doing the right thing isn't enough. That nice guys finish last. That it is impossible to get anywhere unless you compromise yourself somehow...
And thus the world gets divided into the powerless, who perhaps are wise enough to realize they don't care for such games, and thus give up on trying to have power and influence in order to live content with a smaller life...
And the power hungry, who strive for the top - and in the process make choices that generally reinforce the whole system.
This is where I like to bring up Hope for the Flowers. All that fighting generally just replaces whoever is at the top, but the system remains the same.
It's just making yourself another cog in the machine. A fancy cog, perhaps. Made out of expensive jewels and set in the nicest materials... but a cog nonetheless.
I mean, sure... it's nice to be at the top. And of course I can see the appeal of having tons of money and power and influence... but it also seems rather meaningless.
If not you, it'd be someone else. And you're not changing the system, you're just putting yourself at the top.
Same old, same old.
When I think of the forces behind that tired old pattern, it seems to me that it's mostly about fear, and control.
And scarcity... but what is scarcity if not the fear that there won't be enough?
Or perhaps it also comes from callousness. The combination of fear that there won't be enough, as well as the willingness to ignore other people's needs in order to secure your own access.
Did the callousness come first, or the fear - and the callousness is just your way of ignoring the consequences of your fearful decisions?
Hmmm. I'm focusing too much on one piece now, let me back up a bit.
I also wanted to talk about cognitive dissonance and integrity.
Integrity - not in the sense of 'honest and forthright', but in the sense of 'whole and undivided'.
In other words 'without cognitive dissonance'.
Because if God is good and we don't have to be cruel to each other to survive (and thrive)... then how do we justify what we do?
How, over and over and over again, do people keep doing things that are cruel and hurtful?
How do health insurance companies keep justifying their denial of necessary medical treatment?
How do CEO's justify hurting their employees while raising prices that hurt consumes, all to satisfy shareholders?
Are they knowing assholes - where you may despise them, but you can at least credit them for being true to their asshole selves?
Or do they have cognitive dissonance, and cover and cloak what they do with justifications and turning a blind eye? Typical human frailties, perhaps, but frustrating nonetheless. (Yes, I put most of the political forces claiming they're christian in this category. They have to be suffering some sort of cognitive dissonance to think there's any part of God's will in what they're doing. They're fighting to be king of the hill - same old, same old. There's no sense of the divinity to it.)
If God is good, and we don't have to be cruel to each other...
Then I generally think it's the latter. That if given time to listen to that quiet inner voice, to look within and hear such things...
That it's a bit like the parable of the orange - two people are fighting over who gets the orange, but when they finally communicate correctly they realize that one wants the orange for the flesh inside, and the other wants the peel in order to make orange zest.
I know it sounds hopelessly naive and idealistic, but if we really dig into what people want, if we really listen to those inner voices, if we don't decide based on our fears...
Are we really in conflict? Must we fight?
Can the lion really lay down with the lamb?
Monday, December 16, 2024
Tuesday, December 10, 2024
Callousness
I've been thinking about the murder of that healthcare CEO... a lot of people have, and while I don't think I'm adding anything new it still feels like it needs to be said.
Some people seem appalled by the jokes and memes and general celebration of what is basically a murder.
While I'm sure his friends and family are devastated, and the callousness of the general public is hurtful, there's obviously more to it than that.
It is, in many ways, people just demonstrating the callousness they have felt - over and over again - from a system that makes it clear that they don't give a shit how the average person suffers.
I have wondered, sometimes, about what goes through the minds of the 1%. How they can make decisions that you would think any human being would find appalling. Are they even human? Do they not have a heart?
Sure, self-interest is something everyone feels... and it's understandable people are reluctant to ignore a 'threat' to their self interest.
But how, for example, did the people behind the decisions in tobacco companies who fought tooth and nail to deny their products caused cancer live with themselves?
We are talking about people's lives here... and yet making money was more important.
The same for the oil companies. I don't know if they truly believe their cherry picked evidence that oil usage doesn't affect the climate, or if they just think that with their money they'll be fine... and don't care about anyone else.
Is it callousness and cruelty? Self delusion? Do they think they're good people? Or are they so cynical that they don't care?
Over and over again, we have multiple examples. Disney fighting to deny compensation to a man who lost his wife.
Even older stories - of the Radium Girls.
Of companies that - again - fought tooth and nail against safety requirements. Someone might lose a hand or a leg due to unsafe practices, but they'd rather say 'tough luck' and fight against them than show even a modicum of care for the employees who make their products.
Most of the time, it's some faceless and unknown 'they'. The old white man in a board room, wearing a suit, talking up about how great he is and complaining about whatever threatens his ability to buy a seventh yacht.
This CEO apparently was related to Anthem's decision to limit paying for anesthesia.
anesthesia.
Everyone knows someone who had a surgery go longer than expected. Surgeons don't always know what they will find when they open someone up, and complications are not unusual.
The idea that someone could go under for surgery and come out of it with an insane amount of debt just because the procedure took longer than expected?
Horrifying
Or worse, that they would try to reduce the anesthesia sooner than they should and someone would suffer, in pain, because of it.
Was there nobody in the room who saw the problem here?
Did... noone have the ability to put themselves in the shoes of someone going under the knife?
Do they not think they'll ever need surgery themselves? Or not worry about any unexpected expenses if they do?
Again - are they even human?
So somebody actually put a face to one of those unnamed decision makers, and took a shot at him.
Killed him, even.
And since I don't know this guy, since all I know is that he is part of that horrible system, it is really hard not to think 'good riddance'.
Fuck those guys.
There are, of course, a lot of problems here. The issues are larger than just one CEO - they're systemic.
And while some people are fed up to the point that they just want to see it all burn to the ground (there was an interesting article about Trump, saying his supporters are basically the ones that just want to tear it all down), I've for the most part felt that that's a mistake.
For a couple of reasons... first, that tearing down the system tends to hurt the average person more than those insulated boardroom assholes. 'Too big to fail' angers people because that's part of how these guys continue to do what they do.
Second - the source of the problem doesn't go away no matter how satisfying it might be chop of the nobles heads with a guillotine. Generally we're just replacing one group of callous and heartless rich people with another, and it's just a matter of time before the same issues occur. (Like we're seeing today.)
I understand the frustration that led people to support Trump, and my real issue with him is that he's not going to actually address any of that.
He's even more callous and heartless than most. We already saw it, with how he handled covid. He didn't care at all about how many people were actually dying, and only cared for how the numbers looked
“I like the numbers being where they are.”
He said in March of 2020. Because the optics were more important than coming up with the best way of handling a cruise ship with infected passengers.
I've said before, I think the Bible basically is telling us to 'be a good shepherd' and keep the health of our citizens at the forefront of our decision making, because doing so will steer you right.
When someone had blatantly shown they don't have that guiding light, it's pretty much guaranteed that their decisions will go wrong.
The Democrats were not all that great of a choice, sure. But I thought, if they won, that it might be possible to fix some of this shit from within the system.
Now it's hard to believe any of that is possible, and I'm dreading the upcoming train wreck as he continues to make callous and cruel decisions that will hurt the very people who voted for him.
But enough about that. Let's go back to this CEO... and the reaction of the general public.
For the stranger I don't know, but who I'm sure was a human just like myself, and for his friends and family who cared, I am sorry.
But for yet another wealthy man who is part of such a callous and cruel system - good riddance.
It doesn't feel like any of them care unless they suffer the consequences of their decisions, and I can't say I'd be upset if it happened to more of you.