And most of them feel a lot like what is described here .
"Constantly engaging on social media to keep your name out there is degrading. Constantly pitching yourself is degrading. Constantly sucking up to people who might be able to open up opportunities for you is degrading. Constantly exposing yourself to unsympathetic and even potentially hostile audiences—an inevitable byproduct of becoming better-known, regardless of the quality of your work—is degrading. It makes your life suck. "
The timing of this article intrigues me, because as I face what I have been calling 'some hard decisions' I am realizing how disgusted I am with the entire rat race.
Perhaps it's just a way of protecting my ego, of not wanting to admit failure. Perhaps it's childish, an adult version of 'then I'll just take my ball and go home'...
But I'm honestly so damn tired of a system that makes us jump through hoops for the slightest bit of security.
Especially one that has empowered the current fools wrecking everything worthwhile.
Like - fuck it.
If I sell my house, I should be able to pay off any remaining debt and still have a bit of a reserve. Maybe I'll just do something truly worthwhile, like volunteer in a place where the cost of living is really low.
My Spanish is rusty, but if I'm immersed in it I probably would pick it up reasonably fast - I could just, Idk, volunteer to teach kids in Latin America or something.
Get away from this depressing disaster of a society and just focus on doing something worthwhile and meaningful.
Idk if I'm truly serious or not.
No, that's not quite true. I am serious, but I also have some potential job leads and if things work out there I'm okay with not taking such a drastic step.
I think the key is whatever happens this week. I'm tired of the uncertainty and the desperate search for employment. One week, inshallah.
Whatever comes next will depend on how this coming week goes.
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