Friday, November 8, 2024

Let's Talk About Work From Home

The thing about working in tech is that we're almost always remote logging into the servers we use, so a lot of it is remote in the first place. 

Obviously that doesn't account for interacting with your team, and especially when you're new and learning it helps to have someone co-located, however... 

On my first team, we had someone living in the next state over who was full remote. I never actually saw her in person. 

When I changed projects within the company, most of my team lived 12 hours away in Texas. 

One lived in New Jersey, and was also fully remote. A couple of others were in Georgia. 

For my current team, most are in Texas. 

There used to be a couple of people that worked in different teams of the same project who lived where I do, but two have left and I rarely ever saw the third. 

The point is - I pretty much work remote, whether I am physically in the office or physically at home. 

I spend much of my time on remote calls with my team or other people we work with... Even when I am at the office. 

Let me add a few more details, too. 

The local office consolidated into one building, let go some people, and is entirely flex seating. 

I have no desk that I can configure how I want and keep it. I mean, there's few enough people there that I probably could and nobody would mess with it, but it's not really 'mine'. 

Second, our client sent us their own laptop to work on. 

In other words, I have two work laptops. One for my company, and one for the company we support. 

And all those flex seats are only configured for one laptop. 

When I work at the office, I have to bring a charging cable for at least one of those laptops. I have to bring a headset. Since I don't want to keep switching which laptop is on the docking station and which isn't, I also have to bring another mouse and keyboard. 

Oh yeah, and I've been using an ergonomic keyboard for years now. 

In other words, it's a real pain. And when I do so, it's just so I can sit at a desk...

And remotely call my colleagues in Texas.

Or remotely log into one of our servers.

And maybe chat a bit with people from other teams, supporting other clients. Or eat some of the snacks and goodies in the break room.

A few other things -

I am good at my job.

I have received a couple of bonuses already, and a raise outside the normal period for raises.

I have solved problems that have stumped our team for quite some time.

I have been able to figure out what was the root cause for an issue multiple times.

And my boss (in Texas) has absolutely no idea if I am in the office or not. Not unless someone on site (HR cough cough)

Notices and says something.

And I guess what I am getting at is this.

I, like many, have been pressured to come to the office at least three times a week.

And it is entirely possible I will be fired from my job because I don't want to do a pointlessly performative action simply because they say so.

A part of me knows this is stupid, and I probably should just suck it up and go in. But going through that hassle, just to do exactly the same things I do at home - with absolutely no benefit - bothers me.

And I guess, when you come down to it, it's a bit of a test -

Does the company want people who blindly follow even the stupidest of policies?

Or do they want someone good at their job?

(And if anyone wants to hire a DevOps engineer to work remotely, I might be in the market sometime in the future.)


Thursday, November 7, 2024

Election 2024 and Arrogance

I've been thinking about elite arrogance.

No, not the Democrats and recriminations on how they lost to the worst possible candidate.

Nor Republicans, or the billionares who might be smart in some ways... but are pretty foolish in other ways. Elon Musk being the poster child for that at the moment.

Rather, seeing millions of Americans make what I think is a horrible choice, I've been thinking about some of my earlier opinions of democracy.

As a young college student studying political science and joining ROTC (and eventually getting commissioned in the Army) I believed in America. I still do...

Or rather, the potential we have. We're definitely not perfect, especially if you know American history, but there have always been elitists who think democracy itself is a foolish idea.

The Founding Fathers had concered about direct democracy. It's why we have the electoral college. And, tbh, when you see fads and fear sweep through the population it's hard not to understand why. And yet -

And yet, I truly believe that the alternatives are worse.

I'm going to digress for a bit, so bear with me.

Years ago I came across a program that focused on the end game in chess. I'm not really a chess player and haven't touched a chess board since then, but I found it an interesting puzzle. It basically gave you a game alread in progress and asked you to figure out how to get to checkmate in a certain number of moves. 

The endgame isn't just when the king is in checkmate. When you position the pieces so that the king is threatened, the king and all his forces loses a lot of options. They have to prioritize getting the king to safety first, which means that you can direct their movement.

They have to move the king a square to avoid your threat, or move another piece to block you, or whatever, and if you set up your pieces right you can force a series of moves that puts their king into checkmate.

Avoiding that is impossible after a certain point, and the only way it could have been prevented was to go back several moves to before the options got locked in.

I think about that sometimes, because I think it reflects a certain truth about the choices we make. That going down certain paths, that making certain choices, locks you into a path that results in checkmate. Avoiding that requires making the right choice before you're stuck on the path. (Though in real life, are you ever truly stuck?)

This is where I come back to elite arrogance.

Because the decision that leads to checkmate might not seem like a bad idea right away. It might even seem like a good one - for a time. There are moves you can make, and the number varies, but the next apparent response leads to the next, all of which eventually put you in checkmate. (If you're still alive. People may never really live long enough to see the consequences, too.)

Now that I am trying to put this into words, it's hard for me to explain the failed path I see. It's more like a sense than anything else. But I'll try to make it clear.

It starts with someone in a position of power who has a subordinate challenge them. It can feel like a personal attack, a threat, and if they act on that feeling than they will try to end that threat. 

Often with some sort of power play that punishes them. Because 'how dare you!'

And in the process, a couple of things can happen. 
 1) Other people see this and get scared, so they stop speaking their minds.
 2) If it's perceived as an unfair overreaction, it can cause other people to oppose you even more. Also, if the person punished wasn't actually trying to attack you and thought they were just giving their honest opinion, you've probably turned them into a real enemy.
 3) It makes people more cautious, especially if you are punishing someone for showing initiative. Others start thinking 'I'd better ask him/her first'

This has consequences.

It means people won't tell you the things you need to hear.

It means you might create enemies you didn't have to, and get bogged down in power struggles that prevent you from accomplishing much of anything.

It means that things don't get done unless you micromanage, especially if you insist it always has to be done the way you want. And at a certain level of power, it is impossible for one person to do everything. Instead of having trusted subordinates who are able to make decisions and accomplish things together, you are the center and the hub and if you're overwhelmed then whatever you drop doesn't get taken care of.

The alternatives involve a lot of work, especially in the beginning. (But once you get past the initial stages, it can actually take less work. Like the One Minute Manager. You have people to delegate things to and only have to get involved for specific things.)

It means listening to other people's opinions. Truly listening. You don't have to always do what they're suggesting, but simply hearing them out and explaining yourself will go a long way to build trust and acceptance.

You don't even have to lie in order to manipulate them! (Really, that's a sign of weakness and failure, and yet somehow some strategists think they're being clever by doing so.)

Of course, that means that sometimes you have to spend a LOT of time hearing multiple people complain, and sometimes it's for petty reasons and sometimes they all repeat the same thing and you can't just dismiss them because you're tired of having the same conversation over and over again. If they weren't part of those previous conversations, they don't know that. 

It can be pretty tiring, and I understand why some people don't want to deal with it. (They probably shoudn't be in a leadership position if they can't handle that, but... leadership positions often come with money and influence. People rarely seem to give that up even if they're not well suited to it.)

It means being careful in how you handle issues. Tempting as it is to just go off on someone who is making your life difficult, see point 2 above. You need to respond in a way that is fair and consistent and doesn't play favorites.

You also need to invest time in your subordinates. In building that leadership pipeline. In teaching them how to think. In setting expectations, checking in to see if they have what they need in order to meet those expectations, getting rid of obstacles, and most of all guiding them to the point where they can do the job just as well as you can. That's how you get enough people to handle the work that would overwhelm you alone.

Oh, and often times you will have to negotiate some of the craziest interpersonal drama, because people are people. 

It's a lot of fucking work! Or rather, it is if you're doing it right.

Some people lack the maturity for that, or are afraid to admit they were wrong because they see it as showing weakness, or any number of things.

All of this, btw, exacerbates and can play a role in one of the topics I bring up a lot - groupthink.

That unwillingness to hear unwanted opinions? That's part of how you get a bunch of folks ignoring warnings about O-rings and get the Challenger explosion.

I'm not sure if it's groupthink, but you could say that's also what led to that rich guy dying in a submarine accident.

This is also how you wind up like Elon Musk, surrounded by 'yes-men' that encourage him to do some of the most idiotic things (and waste millions of dollars in the process).

To bring this discussion back to democracy - elections are a way to hear the voice of the people. It's hard to tell exactly what that voice is saying, despite all the polling and interviewing. Sometimes it's just a voice shouting 'FIX IT!'

Sometimes it's not what we want to hear. Sometimes people are flat out wrong. But dismissing their concerns leads to checkmate. They're telling you something important. Maybe not the exact thing they're claiming it is, since the root cause can be something else entirely. Still, deciding that 'people are morons and they're too dumb to manage themselves' means you've stopped listening and you're on the path to losing.

This, for me, is especially hard at the moment. It is tempting to just throw my hands up in the air, decide people are too stupid to bother with, and figure out some way of just quietly living away from it all. At least until climate disruption and civic unrest wind up killing me. (I don't expect to be the protagonist of an apocalyptic story.)

But I think, ultimately, that this is a sign that we didn't do the work. I don't just mean educating people about civics, or teaching them how to research and evaluate sources, or emphasizing just why Jan 6th was like taking a wrecking ball to the American ship of state.

It also refers to the elite, who live in their bubbles. I can't say for sure, but it seems they've learned to dismiss the voices of everyone pointing out things they really need to know and address. 

That we need voices explaining all over again why letting income inequality grow is a terrible idea - for their own self interest, too.

Why separating church and state is a good idea, and that doing so is not a threat to their faith.

How having an educated population with enough financial security to be able to leave a job that doesn't suit them is a good thing, and making higher education affordable benefits everyone too.

Why having a healthy workforce is also a good thing. Seriously, why is that even a question? If you don't like the idea of universal healthcare, then find an alternative that actually works.

Why racism is idiotic, because apparently some of us need a refresher.

Why autocracy is bad, and we don't actually want to wind up like Russia under Putin. Not even the billionaires.

Things I thought had been well established as common American beliefs are apparently not, otherwise we wouldn't have rich people spending money to undo all of that. 


Edited to add: Oh yeah, and why science is a good thing! And that truth is important. 

Why is truthiness a thing? Whatever happened to 'truth, justice, and the American way'? 

Wednesday, November 6, 2024

Election 2024

I am thinking about this article here -

https://quillette.com/2024/11/06/the-revenge-of-the-silent-male-voter-trump-vance-musk/

I mean, yes, I think choosing someone who openly doesn't care about the Constitution is a bad idea. We know he's buddy buddy with Putin. We know Putin changed the term limits so he's basically dictator for life. We know Trump has expressed similar interests multiple times, and that Colorado clown even suggested it in her statement yesterday. 

If he doesn't do something like that, we only have to survive 4 years. I suspect changing it will be one of his priorities, and that if he thinks he can run yet again he might moderate himself. As much as he ever does. 

Assuming he doesn't die of old age and poor health and leave us with Vance. 

Anyways, I honestly don't know how so many Americans are okay with someone who has repeatedly shown he won't deliver on his unrealistic promises, but whatever. 

This article is interesting, though. Because it captures some emotional feelings I've heard indicators for. 

I mean, I do think there's toxic masculinity. I know plenty of men who are caring husbands, loving fathers, etc. And yet I've also heard the reports of the loneliness of men. Of how some (the toxic ones) can't really express any emotion other than anger, turn everything into some sort of pissing contest, try to do that 'Alpha male' bs that just makes them annoying assholes. (The number of times I've seen a decently good looking guy, only for them to open their mouth and reveal a terrible personality...  Well, nobody cares about that).

Anyways. Trump is like the epitome of toxic masculinity. 

But I can understand how young men might feel constrained. I mean, hell. I was in the Army, which is 90% men. And even though I found it kind of sad and ridiculous how scared many are of appearing even the slightest bit homosexual or feminine (really... It's so strange that 'manliness' often is an act performed by the least 'manly', if you think courage is a 'manly' trait. The soldier rocking a pink beanie cap shows more courage and 'manliness' than most, because he obviously doesn't give a shit about that nonsense)

Ahem. I digress. Even though it's sort of painful to see that crap, and I have been glad I'm a woman who doesn't have to deal with it, I do know it's part of that whole 'prove yourself' thing. 

Plus friendly competition can be fun. (Especially when you blow stuff up. Like an ex talking about the potato gun he and his friends built when younger.)

Like, if I go to a combat zone can I hold my own? Not give in to fear? 

And so, perhaps, at least one small part of the problem is that they don't see positive examples. Men who show them how to be men, and how to prove themselves, without looking like 'wusses' and also without being assholes. 

Like the special ops guys. The ones who carry themselves with confidence and have nothing to prove - and therefore can be some of the calmest and quietest people in a room. 

This has meandered long enough, and I don't know that there's any real conclusion to draw from it. Except, maybe, that we need to show that it truly is better to not be an 'alpha male' asshole. 

Election 2024

So this is where we are. 

I honestly thought we were better than this...

I don't really know what else to say. I'm just so disappointed in my fellow Americans. 

Wednesday, October 30, 2024

Election 2024

I feel like if I'm going to condemn how some of the rich and powerful act like fools, I ought to also share when they do something positive. Like here -

https://fortune.com/2024/10/29/ceos-america-largest-companies-voting-for-harris-not-trump-leadership-elections-politics/

Jan 6th should have been the nail in Trump's political coffin, and frankly every report of some billionaire contributing to him just makes them look bad.

So here's the opposite. 

This also reminds me of the latest fuss about newspaper endorsements and here's the thing -

I have never changed my mind on who to vote for based on one of these, so perhaps it's true that a newspaper (like, oh, let's just say the Washington Post) shouldn't bother. However... 

That's the sort of argument that should be made in a normal election year. Or even at the very beginning of the campaign, and clearly and publicly saying there won't be one. 

Saying so now? Just days before election day? 

Rank cowardice at best, another thumb on the scale for Trump at worst. 

Yeah, those newspapers deserve all the grief they're getting for that decision. 

If you're worried about Trump and his petty vindictive ness, now is the time to speak out. 

After all, the consequences will be worse if he somehow manages to pull this off (I still don't see how he's got the support, despite the polling). 

Oh, and even if he fails you know he and his people are yet again going to claim the election was stolen. Showing Kamala truly does have support makes it more difficult to convince people that she didn't. 

Friday, October 25, 2024

Seeing How Far the Rot Has Spread

Trump truly has become a litmus test... 

And all the rich fools supporting him, all the newspapers either endorsing him or refusing to endorse anyone, are showing us how far the rot has spread. 

This election should have been a no brainer, and the fact that it isn't is truly disturbing. 

I really wonder what is going through those fools heads. Is it simple greed? Do they truly not understand what makes America great? Is it racism? 

Honestly, I'm less shocked by Trump than by all the institutions and billionaires that are failing the easiest test ever. 

Saturday, October 5, 2024

Junk Food Politician

When writing about Jan 6th, I realized that Trump and his ilk were basically taking advantage of people's ignorance about how the political system works. 

At the time I was thinking about the safe harbor deadline, how states certify election results, and various other dull and dry things that the people around Trump must have known, and therefore all the BS about Pence being able to change the results had to have been the worst sort of cynical manipulation... 

And realized how consistently he and his do this. 

Like the tariff discussion at the start of the presidential debate. 

If you were a business selling a widget in the US for $10, and Trump slapped a tariff on the product costing you $1, it does not take a lot of work to realize you can just consider that an additional cost of manufacturing and start selling your widget for $11. Thereby passing the costs on to the consumer and ultimately raising prices in the US. 

And yet he, bold as you please, claimed he'd add tariffs and that no American would have to suffer for it. 

Sounds a lot like 'Mexico will pay for the wall', and all I can think is that his supporters must like the way he lies. 

I will save the long winded and wonky details for all the ways they take advantage of people's ignorance and just say this -

They're junk food politicians.