Wednesday, June 30, 2021
Disturbing
Monday, June 28, 2021
Sociocultural Differences
Sunday, June 27, 2021
Ramblings on Meritocracy, Elitism, and I Don't Know What Else to Call This
I think there's a point I want to make, but I've got such disconnected thoughts floating through my head that I can't really get at it, so I'll just try blogging and see what comes out.
There are certain ideas that I've accepted at such a basic level that I don't even think about how to defend them. For example, that white supremacy is bad. That nepotism is bad. That meritocracy is good, if we actually had one. Though we probably should focus less on status and rewards and perks and more on what the jobs actually entail. (i.e. someone who is terrible at being a CEO or some other high status job will cling to it because they don't want to lose all the perks that come with it, even if they're actually terrible at their job. It makes them obstacles and hindrances... and I can't imagine they're actually happy with where they're at. People talk about how 'not everyone needs to go to college' and how trade schools are an excellent option. And I agree. But I don't think it'll matter so much until the wealthy and powerful show they're content to let their children go to a trade school rather than some Ivy League somewhere. Why isn't Ivanka Trump or Chelsea Clinton or Hunter Biden or the Bush twins becoming plumbers or electricians?)
So anyways, let me take this from the top.
First. Talent is everywhere.
I mean, it's hard to define 'talent' in the first place, and there's an element of access and development involved (i.e. someone who has never done gymnastics is not going to be the next Simone Biles, but they might have the capability to be that if they had the access and training.) But the potential can be anywhere, and in anybody.
In fact, for certain positions talent doesn't seem to be inherited at all. (Perhaps because the skills needed come more from life experience than genetics? And the life experiences are different enough that it doesn't pass on?)
For that statement, I'm mostly just going on the disparity in skill between one king or queen and their heirs. If being a good ruler was truly a genetic trait, then we wouldn't see a competent king or queen so often followed by a complete disaster of their own flesh and blood.
And we wouldn't have seen so much talent show every time someone cleared the way of obstacles. (like Napolean and the "baton in every knapsack".)
The military in particular highlights this, as the stresses of war tend to really show who's competent and who isn't. (and who's lucky vs unlucky. There's definitely an element of chance at play, too.)
Talent is everywhere, but the potential to develop those talents is often limited. (Unfairly, too. I do not think the world would be worse off for more Einsteins or Marie Curies, and the fact that there are probably people just as smart who never get the chance to shine is... sad.)
That means that life is all too often like the caterpillar pillar in Hope for the Flowers. That is, we're dealing with scarcity, and people are competing for it... and they get so sucked into the fight, and pushing and climbing their way to the top, that they generally just become part of the system and don't really change anything.
And maybe they get close to the top, and realize how much the people at the very top are blocking them... and maybe they have a little revolution and get rid of the obstacles.. only for them to now be at the top, an obstacle for those below... and realize there's really nothing there at all. (Like, seriously. Let's all learn how to build our cocoons, turn into butterflies, and fly off rather than fighting to be king of the hill.)
Actually, that gets closer to what I wanted to point out.
Another reason I'm not exactly keen on a revolution is that it won't necessarily change anything.
That is, say you push out the entitled, arrogant assholes hogging all the resources? It's probably not going to be more than a generation or two until it's your own children or grandchildren who turn into the exact same sort of entitled, arrogant, asshole.
It's not that the people on top are inherently bad, they're just reacting to the same systemic pressures that make the same thing happen over and over and over again.
The real question is 'why do people raised with privilege and wealth so consistently become arrogant and entitled?
This is part of why I harp on the elite so much. Because one of the things that's supposed to distinguish them as 'worthy' and deserving of all their privilege is that they're supposed to be better than that.
If the average person tends to let power go to their head, the 'elite' (if they're truly to be worthy of that title) should be able to handle it without doing so.
That if an ordinary person might feel threatened by a particularly smart underling, a true 'elite' would realize that enabling that talent will make their company/organization/nation better and will try to develop it. A truly elite leader would enable the sort of meritocracy too many give lip service to, rather than drawing on the same 'who you know' networks to fight over the same group of well-connected individuals.
A truly elite person would be able to accept criticism and use it to improve their organization, not take it as a threat and a challenge.
A truly elite person would do their best to get past their own biases and misconceptions, even knowing that such a task is probably doomed to failure.
And in the process, they would separate out their own self-interest from what's best for the larger group as a whole. Which is why a truly elite person wouldn't let their biases make them ignore all the evidence for climate change, nor let their self-interest keep them from supporting realistic policies for combatting it.
In other words, truly elite people would act nothing like the arrogant, entitled, and selfish powers-that-be who have brought us to our current state of affairs.
I don't exactly hate them, since they're just being... human. I just don't like them thinking they're all that special when they're showing again and again that they're just... human.
I kind of wish they were as good as they seem to think they are. Maybe we could actually stop the cycle.
I'm not sure that really got at what I wanted to say, but it seems like a good stopping point.
Sunday, June 20, 2021
Thoughts on Systems to Prevent Abuse
Saturday, June 19, 2021
Rambling On About Stuff
I am committing to spending at least a little bit of time every weekend doing two things: learning more about infosec/malware/etc and applying to at least one position.
It has been... harder than I expected. Some of that's inevitable (my Little from Big Brothers Big Sisters wanted to do something last weekend, for example) and some of it... I wonder if it's my own personal hangups?
Like, one of my biggest worries/fears is that I sabotage myself. I think mostly because that's the one thing I can control. Like, I can't make other people decide to hire me or pay me for whatever. Much though I'd like to, I don't get to control other people that way.
And actually, I don't want to. I mean, I joke about it. Mostly because every time I think about something I'd like to do (i.e. replacing my roof, which is probably due soon. Or really getting a second story added on, which would be even more awesome. But let's be real here. Or helping out my brother during his time of need. Or fixing up the yard. Or going to Gambia if Little's friend doesn't make it back when she's supposed to. Or traveling the world, or looking into in vitro fertilization or something and having a kid) there's always that nagging worry about how I'm going to pay for it. Really, I don't need a million dollars... but the freedom to do whatever I want without some level of stress or worry about the cost would be so liberating.
But I don't actually want control people. Really, it's almost the opposite of that.
Ironic for a former officer in the Army, supervisor, etc. I know. But... I really don't like having people hanging around on me.
Even as a child... one of my brothers and I fought All. The. Time. And I remember our parents musing about why and what happened and all, and they talked about how when we were little my brother used to follow me everywhere.
And I was like 'that would be annoying, I don't remember that at all but I would probably be irritated if someone was following me around all the time.'
Reminds me of the old saying that the best leaders are 'smart but lazy'. I know there might not be an obvious connection there, bear with me.
It's because I don't want people following me around that I would want to lead in such a way that they don't need me. They shouldn't need me telling them what to do, shouldn't need me hovering over them making sure they do what they're supposed to do. Shouldn't need me to be the one telling them something needs to be done.
So, yeah, my leadership style is mostly 'set expectations, train, and build up their independent decision making so they can see what needs to be done and just do it.'
That last is the trickiest bit, because you're trying to teach judgment. Decision making. How to think and what to consider when making a decision.
Throw in a hefty dose of 'build up confidence if they need it' or 'temper their overconfidence' and eventually let them fly on their own.
Heh.
My first tattoo was of a mountain lion. Again, bear with me. It's related.
I was in college musing about tattoos, thinking that there was nothing I could think of that I wanted to permanently ink it on my skin. But then I remembered back during my freshman year of high school, the last time I did cross country... and they were coming up with nicknames for the people on the team. And for some reason mine was puma. (I think.)
So I decided I wanted a mountain lion/puma/cougar tattoo. Went to a tattoo artist, and realized that the very clear visual I had in my head was not so easily translated into something the artist understood. It wasn't one of the fairly standard tattoos you could choose from a book. And he basically asked me to find a picture of what I wanted and bring it in.
Cue my going to a library and reading up on mountain lions, trying to find a picture that matched what I had thought was a fairly standard image in my head.
Anyways. Did you know mountain lions are very versatile? They live in mountains, sure. But also deserts and forests and pretty much anywhere there are deer.
Also, they're generally loners. I mean, not entirely... they obviously meet up to have children, and there was a recent article saying they're more social than we used to think.
The more I read about them the more it seemed to fit. I mean, I am social. Really.
Just... not as much as some? Idk, I have friends... but most of my friends are spread out all over the states. And it's not like we call each other up to chat all the time.
Yet when we do talk, we're generally happy to hear from each other and are able to pick right back up without any problem.
Anyways. I started typing this while waiting for some updates to install. That's finished, so now it's time to restart my computer and then try to work on my resume.
Like I said... two things I want to work on every weekend. Time to start on one of them.
Edited to add: I'm perfectly fine with letting someone else be in charge, as long as they're reasonably competent (or at a minimum competent enough that it's better than the infighting that comes from challenging them)
I get irritated when they're incompetent, because then they either need to step aside gracefully or deal with the inevitable infighting that comes when they try to hold on to a position they aren't doing right.
I do think sometimes that status (and fear of losing it) makes people obstacles to that. Because ofc they won't admit they're not doing a good job, and won't get out of the way. Not if it means losing the perks they're accustomed to.